As I was contemplating what I should write, after not writing for so long, lots of thoughts came to mind, like "here I go again" or "starting over", etc... But then, I looked at the name of my blog, and it hit me, I'm not starting over at all, this is a journey!! I am continuing this journey that I began several years ago. A JOURNEY to be a healthier me! And on this journey, I have made mistakes and lost focus, missed a lot of workouts, and eaten way too many yummy things. And hopefully, along this journey I have also learned a lot about food and health, and especially about me. Having said that, I will share that my weight is back up to 151 lbs. Ugh! I have to ask myself, "Why would I allow this to happen again?" A year and a half ago, I felt the best I had felt in years. I worked hard and had good muscle tone. I felt great and comfortable in my clothes. So...why give all that up for a few cookies? Well, I don't really have an answer for that, except that I lacked the discipline I need to continue to stay fit. Don't you wish that fat would instantly appear when you eat something you shouldn't? But it doesn't, it sneaks up on you. Sometimes, I feel like I'm playing this game with myself to see what I can get away with. "Well, I've eaten this much and I didn't gain any weight yet...so keep pushing it and see what happens." It's sabotage really. Anyone relate? Anyway, that is part of what has gotten me to this particular destination on my journey. And at this point, I am ready to take the reins again, and make my health a priority. I am ready to go back to the basics of drinking enough water, exercising daily, staying away from sweets, eating more fruits and veggies. It's not a mystery...it's just doing the right things. Oh, if only it were as easy as it sounds. :) Thanks for traveling this road with me.
My prayer is that I will crave only Jesus Christ!
Kathy
The honest truth
12 years ago
Hi Dear,
ReplyDeleteI'm so excieted that we are back on track. You are so right...the weight gain is gradual and sneaky! We lose a little muscle and the gain a little fat and the scales don't move much at first, and then you wake up one day and your jeans don't fit the way they used to! Well girlfriend, things are about to change. We are taking control of the one thing we can. Somethings we can't control, but no one can take credit for our level of fitness and our food choices. So here's to being responsible and taking ownership of our bodies!
So exicted!!! Can you tell?
Weigh in on Friday!
Love ya,
Jane
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ReplyDeleteAbout the journey, I wanted to tell you that Brighton jewelry has this bracelett with a leather band and a metal plate that has this engraved: "Embrace the journey." Mike and I were just talking about this about a week ago. To wish we could fast forward through the crummy aspects of life, would be to miss something that God can teach us. I hope to grow through this time of discipline...again. Obviously i didn't get it the first time. But I know God is good and walks with us through all things. The opposite of "embracing" is resentment, rebellion, bitterness, and those are all negative and energy draining characteristics, not to mention displeasing to the Lord as they demonstrate a lack of trust that He is in control. I don't believe embracing the journey means accepting the crud, the hard times, the trials, it just means out of these situations, I am going to grow, become stronger and hopefully a little wiser, by allow God to lead me, comfort me, teach me, rebuke me, etc.
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Your fellow Journeyman (woman) :)
Hi Kathy
ReplyDeleteAre you looking for inspirational words? I'm feeling a little full of hypocrisy but I will say that the picture above where you look anything but happy in the blue shirt should be enough to keep things moving forward Hee Hee How about "I'm going to put that in the paper if you don't get it together." Okay that probably won't work either. How about, "You are beautiful in so many ways as a friend, mother and a wife." It doesn't matter to me if you weigh 130 or 250 because I love ya. More importantly I want you to love yourself and that just doesn't seem to be happening at this weight. Don't let fat distract you from who God says you are. It's occupying thoughts that are contrary to what He has and believes about you. There is a voice that is speaking to you about your beauty that is not from God. Attack it with vengence and balance. Rejoice because you were beautifully made. Get healthy because it is HIS temple. He is not defined by your decisions. You on the other hand push Him away when your thoughts go to negative self judgement. I agree that more of God seems to sort these things out. Would it help to consider that each time you make a good decision about His temple you are making a decision to invite him to have more of you? Just thinking with my fingers here. Looking forward to us all getting together and going on this journey. Not a journey to more diet education. I have a Phd in that! I probably could run a company on weightloss advice. Maybe it's about growing closer to what he would have us to become in Him. A journey of self discipline and denial. Who would have thought!
Love Dawna
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