As I was contemplating what I should write, after not writing for so long, lots of thoughts came to mind, like "here I go again" or "starting over", etc... But then, I looked at the name of my blog, and it hit me, I'm not starting over at all, this is a journey!! I am continuing this journey that I began several years ago. A JOURNEY to be a healthier me! And on this journey, I have made mistakes and lost focus, missed a lot of workouts, and eaten way too many yummy things. And hopefully, along this journey I have also learned a lot about food and health, and especially about me. Having said that, I will share that my weight is back up to 151 lbs. Ugh! I have to ask myself, "Why would I allow this to happen again?" A year and a half ago, I felt the best I had felt in years. I worked hard and had good muscle tone. I felt great and comfortable in my clothes. So...why give all that up for a few cookies? Well, I don't really have an answer for that, except that I lack
ed the discipline I need to continue to stay fit. Don't you wish that fat would instantly appear when you eat something you shouldn't? But it doesn't, it sneaks up on you. Sometimes, I feel like I'm playing this game with myself to see what I can get away with. "Well, I've eaten this much and I didn't gain any weight yet...so keep pushing it and see what happens." It's sabotage really. Anyone relate? Anyway, that is part of what has gotten me to this particular destination on my journey. And at this point, I am ready to take the reins again, and make my health a priority. I am ready to go back to the basics of drinking enough water, exercising daily, staying away from sweets, eating more fruits and veggies. It's not a mystery...it's just doing the right things. Oh, if only it were as easy as it sounds. :) Thanks for traveling this road with me.
My prayer is that I will crave only Jesus Christ!
Kathy
